you what?

Just when I started thinking that I was getting the hang of the personal training sessions, and was pretty confident that I wasn't going to leave feeling like I had to vomit, I had to check myself.  Today was a great day and a great workout. It was physically and mentally tough, and it taught me something about myself.

I pay good money to go see a trainer. I do this because I think it is worth it because someone else will push me harder than I will push myself. Plus it is nice to have someone to spot me and make sure that I am doing exercises correctly and that I grow and face continuous challenges.  Today I got every penny's worth of money I invested in my training session.

The session started with jogging on the spot. I felt a little smug and assured that I was going to have a workout that was tough but calm. And then, 30 seconds later, my world shifted.  Justin was serious about putting me through the paces and he was not going to waste any time.  The next 6 moves were things that I had never done before. Then he added weights and mild alterations to moves that I had done before.  I questioned if I had the coordination for some of the moves. I wondered if I had the strength for others, and I generally vocalized doubt in myself.  To this Justin answered "the fiery red head has come to play. Let her out. Just try".

I did try and I amazed myself. I learned that I am much stronger than I imagine. On three separate occasions I was able to do more reps, or complete the exercise as instructed, or use more weight than I would have chosen for myself.  I was dripping in sweat and working my butt off and I loved every minute of it.

Today I completed every thing that was asked of me and I did it with zest. I was there to work out and get stronger and today Justin worked more than my body. Today he worked my mind and my heart, and for that I thank him. I became a better me today and I will take that into tomorrow, and the next day, and the next.

So note to self. Next time you think you can't. Shut up and do it. Better to discover just how much you can.